Jade is Back

That’s such a weird thing to say, but as I was walking to my office yesterday after grabbing my obligatory cup of coffee I realized that I haven’t felt like myself in a long time. 

I’d like to believe part of this is because I keep modifying my physical appearance. I’ve been lifting weights religiously again and have gained back muscle mass a lot faster than I’d expected to.

But also I dyed my hair Saturday morning. 

It looks like my head is on fire and I am here for it. It was completely an accident and I’ll be uploading a vlog about the process (or lack thereof) later. One of my friends at work does hair and he came up to me seriously asking how I did it because it looks like I foiled it but I really just don’t know what I’m doing. 

And maybe it’s because I’m leaving my toxic job on Friday. I don’t know if I’ll like my new job, but it gets me out of customer service which is what I need right now. 

I lost a lot of myself when I started my current job with all the hours I was working and also with the divorce. I was this robot of sleep, work, work, maybe sleep, work, eat(?), work, sleep, work. But something about dyeing your hair and finding a workout routine that fits you that just makes you feel like yourself. 

Hair is just magical. Whenever I do something to it I feel like myself again. 

It’s good to be back. 


Personal Goals for July 2017

All right, moving forward means I need to have a plan. Failing to plan is planning to fail they say. And I’m very good at failing to plan, which is odd because a much younger me used to plan out Christmas Day down to the minute. No lie, I wrote schedules and I put a lot of effort into them only to have them shot down as the day unfolded. Maybe that’s why I stopped planning things…

Number One: write SOMETHING every day. I doesn’t have to be for the book, although that it preferable, but it could also be a script for a video or a blog post. The important thing is I get back into the habit of writing. 

Number Two: Rejoin a gym. Let’s be honest, I liked myself a lot better when I had more muscle mass on me than less fat. Being skinny is overrated. I need to get back into lifting heavy shit. 

Number Three: Seriously try to cut back on sugar. It’s really bad for you and I have a serious addiction I need to kick. So, being more specific, only 1 cheat meal a week, and I mean it, me. Only 1. 

I think three is a good, small number, to ease me back into things. I have to take this seriously. If I ever want to be happy with what I do to pay for my food and entertainment and the small matter of a place to live then I need to put the work in now. 

New Fitness Goals

If you watched one of last week’s vlogs you’ll know I was thinking of quitting my gym.


The staff is pretty nice, but some things have been broken since I signed up in December with new things added since then, plus I have been approached by multiple guys, older guys. The young ones have figured out to leave me alone, or at least have some manners. The older ones are always telling me I’m doing my moves wrong. “Let me correct your form.” “I’m impressed, you’re in here every day. Good for you.” Dude, leave me alone, I’m trying to lift. So I haven’t been in about 2 weeks now. It’s not really a gym and I don’t feel comfortable there. I just feel them watching me. No, seriously, they stare, and I’m not being paranoid.


Last week I started doing home workouts. I found this guy on YouTube  and his workouts are fantastic. The ones I’ve been doing are HIIT based, and from what I’ve looked at of his strength ones they follow the same formula. I just need more weights than my dinky old 5 pound dumbbells from high school. And I started the 30 day Yoga Camp series from Yoga with Adrienne but I missed the weekend because of work and errands, so I’m 2 days behind but am gonna pick it up again tonight after work. I injured my knee and my hip on a run last Tuesday, which was just a sign that I need to do more yoga. I always injure them even with stretches and warmups, but for some reason when I was doing yoga regularly I never hurt them. Probably because I was creating space in my body regularly along with being more in tune with it.

Once Crush Fit comes out with their totally home-based workout I’m buying it and jumping in, but until then I’m just doing HIIT 30-60 minutes (sometimes 90) a day along with the yoga videos. I’ve got a lot of extra fat to lose, anyway, so I need to be focusing on that. And I’m also thinking of training for a marathon because I’ve never done one and it sounds like hell but also fun.


Basically, I’m quitting the gym because I’m uncomfortable there and it would save me some money, and focusing on more cardio based fitness and yoga. I love lifting, and I look forward to the day I can get back to it, but I also lost sight of other things I love to do, like yoga and running and dancing. There are other gyms in town but I can’t afford any of them right now. I’m a little sad, but I’m having a lot of fun putting on my Zumba music and doing HIIT in my living room every day. It’s just so convenient, and when I get heavier weights with the money I save from not going to the gym it’ll be a lot more challenging. Not that I’m not dripping with sweat at the end of my workouts.

Sometimes the gym isn’t for everyone and there are plenty of good alternatives, especially with YouTube in existence now.

Kick Monday’s Butt

We all hate Monday’s right? It’s the start of a new week. Several long days are stretched out in front of us. After a (hopefully) relaxing weekend it can be hard to get back into the swing of things.

But why? Why don’t we look at Monday’s the same way we look at New Year’s Eve? It’s a chance to start over fresh and reach f or our goals.

I did hit snooze a few times this morning. I got up an hour after I had hoped to get  up and even then it was just because Luna was prancing around the bed and squishing my chest meowing her adorable little head off. I ate breakfast, watched an episode of The Fosters (such a good show!) and then walked to the gym for leg day. I really had to fight the urge to just sit at home and binge watch Netflix all morning before work but getting to the gym really raised my energy and my mood. Especially because the sun is out today.

Mondays are hard but only if we allow them to be. It’s best to treat Monday like any other day of the week. There are 52 of them in a year. Do you really want to hate 52 days out of the year? How many days is that in your lifetime that you hated? What a waste of energy!

if you haven’t already, lace up your shoes, plug in those headphones, and go kick Monday’s butt! You are no longer it’s slave.

Week #52 and on of 2015

Dec 20


FINALLY finished moving

Dec 21


too exhausted from working out to take a non-blurry picture. Never miss a Monday done right

Dec 22


starting mass effect

Dec 23


can’t stop wearing those earrings

Dec 24


Dec 25


Christmas day!

Dec 26


Work the next day

Dec 27

I stayed home all day and did nothing. I’m boring. No picture.

Dec 28


My selfie game is getting better

Dec 29


It’s the oldest piercing in history, i don’t understand the issue

Dec 30


Ikea with the bestie

Dec 31


new year’s eve 

I did it. I missed maybe 5 days in total, but I essentially took a picture for every day of the year. I don’t think I’ll be doing that again this year, but I did it. Now I gotta assemble them all into a photo book. 😀


It’s barely after 4 and I’m sitting in total darkness…

I started Crush60 over again and found a very affordable gym near my new apartment I’m going to sign up for this weekend since tomorrow will likely be my last workout ever at my university gym. I absolutely love lifting. I didn’t realize how much until I wasn’t doing a lot of it in Crush at Home, but I really do love it.

What I kind of don’t love is how hungry it makes me.

I eat a substantial lunch of tofu, veggies, and toast with peanut butter after I lift and I’m instantly hungry after I put my plate down. I know it’s my body wanting to repair my muscles but I still want to cut down on fat so I can’t eat too much.

That said, I’m probably still painfully under my recommended intake anyway.

Oh, ED brain, will you ever go away?

I’m off to eat more food…

Week #42 of 2015

Yesterday I was so busy I barely had time to eat, so this post is a day late. Sorry!

Oct 11

Version 2On Sunday we went to Goodwill to get a few things for our Halloween Costumes. I’ll be wearing mine a week early this week for my vlog so keep your eyes out for that.

Oct 12

IMG_2410We’ve been getting up early to go to the gym so when we’re heading home we get to catch the sunrise.

Oct 13

IMG_2411Another beautiful sunrise picture. One thing I’m going to miss about living here is how much sun we get compared to Seattle, but I’ll gladly take a rainy location over a sunny one if it means there are more opportunities and things for me to do.

Oct 14


My life is boring right now, so enjoy another sunrise picture! This one looks like a painting. Wednesdays are busy days for me. I go to the gym, to yoga, have 30 minutes to shower and eat before volunteering, going to class, and going to work. But after that my week slows down considerably. I had a nice evening, though. I finally got to the the Actor Hocus Pocus because that poor boy had never seen it. It’s a failure on my part, too, considering we’ve been together for almost 7 years.

Oct 15

IMG_2413I’m really enjoying the fall foliage around here. It’s my favorite season and I like to stop and appreciate the trees every now and then cause the wind here will blow the leaves down fast, and then the street cleaners sweep them away cause they like to rob college kids of our opportunities to make giant leaf piles to jump in.

Oct 16

IMG_2418Finally Friday came! I had a kick ass workout and felt good enough after to take some sweaty selfies. Check out my shoulder! Gettin’ those yolo delts.

Oct 17

IMG_2421I spent Friday night staying up until all hours of the night. I watched The Duchess, an episode of Friends, and then I tried to watch The Dick Van Dyke Show but I got too tired so I went to bed. I got to see a friend who graduated in June and moved to SoCal but was visiting Saturday night and we went out to the bars. We ended up staying up until all hours of the night again, but it was too much fun to go to bed at a reasonable hour.

How was your week?