Happy Christmas

Is 2016 over yet?

I have been doing nothing but working my butt off since April. My average week consists of 5-6 work days at 10-16 hours each day. Thursday night into Friday I have 6 hours between shifts so I got about 3 hours of sleep and had to work 16 hours on Friday. Suffice it to say I. Am. Exhausted.

But other than working a lot, I had been looking forward to Christmas, and since I have to work Christmas Day, my family had Christmas today.

It’s not the first year we’ve done it on Christmas Eve, but it’s the first we’ve done it out of necessity instead of excitement and impatience. I slept for about 12 hours, got up, worked out, then headed over to my mom’s.

My angsty teenage little brother sat on the couch glued to his phone while my mom and I ate pizza and caught up and then we opened gifts.

I don’t like that as we grow older the magic in our lives just disappears. Christmas used to be a sparkly, warm, magical time that I like to relive in classic movies and perfect photographs, but in reality it’s not the same as it was when we were 3. The little bit that’s left is in those traditions. Pizza as our Christmas dinner, watching A Christmas Story on repeat on TBS, watching the Disney Christmas Parade (I was there for the filming this year!!!), and eating cinnamon rolls for Christmas breakfast (mine are in the fridge waiting for morning).

No, Christmas isn’t the same as when I was 3, but 20 years later I’m still in love with the colorful lights, the movies and food, the traditions, and of course getting to spend time with my family and friends. I can’t believe how many people think of me to wish a Happy Christmas to and even get me a gift.

I hope that you all have a happy Christmas and take a moment to just breathe in the moments you’re spending with family.


2016 Resolutions

I guess 6 days into 2016 I can write about my resolutions.

I’ve decided that my recovery doctors didn’t know shit. I knew that already. That’s why I stopped seeing them before I was actually discharged. That’s why I didn’t listen to my dietician who called me fat. And that’s why their weight goal is just as meaningless as everything else they ever told me.

I don’t need to be 110-120 pounds. I’m 5’2 (a few other doctors have told me I’m 5’3 so I don’t know who to believe). I don’t need to weigh that much.

So, resolution #1: lose weight

I’m joining everyone else in the world with that one.

Resolution #2: lose the weight healthily

So far I’ve lost 3 pounds since I last weighed myself in early December, so somehow I lost weight with the move and Christmas season. Since I am now unemployed I have the time to workout for multiple hours a day. On Monday I did both an hour of Pop Pilates and a Crush booty workout. I missed yesterday and today, but that’s my goal for the next few weeks: to do Crush and Pop Pilates at the same time.

I am obviously keeping active, the eating is a struggle. Being unemployed means no money for food so I can eat as much as I can afford, but not necessarily as much as I need. I’m hoping that can change soon, but the job hunt isn’t going too well. I can’t even remember most of the places I’ve applied to anymore.


Resolution #3: try to be more positive

I have control over my life. I have control over how I feel. Yes, my current situation isn’t ideal, but when I look at where I’ve been and where I could be it’s pretty good. And it’s not going to get better if I just mope around all the time. I need to make the choice daily to be positive; to be happy.

Resolution #4: chase my dreams

I’m done with college now. The rest of my life is stretched out in front of me. So I need to do what I want now. This is my life. I can do whatever I want with it, so I should do what I want with it.

I was asked on Christmas Day when I’m going to be having children. I’m 22. I just graduated college. Even if children were in my future, they sure as hell wouldn’t be happening any time soon. But since they are never happening, that means I can use every single year ahead of me for me. This sounds like I don’t have a deadline, so I’m making one. Starting this year and continuing every year after that I’m going to chase my dreams.

Maybe I’ll change my dreams a few times, and that’s ok. If I spend my life chasing my dreams and learning a bunch along the way I will die happy.

What is my current dream? Check back later and you’ll see. 😉

What are your resolutions for 2016?

Thinking Out Loud #6


Thursdays are for thinking out loud!

1. I’m going to Dapper Day in Disneyland in September, and I’m thinking of getting my daily walking mileage up to the same amount I’ll be walking on the trip so my feet don’t die as much as they usually do. It’s about 10 miles a day, so I need to up my running. I’m not really a big runner right now, but I definitely enjoy it. Right now I run about 2 miles/day, 4 days/week. #trainingfordisney

August 2014 in Carsland

August 2014 in Carsland

2. Speaking of Dapper Day, I can’t decide if my husband and I are going to Disney-dapper-bound as Peggy Carter and Howard Stark, or Eugene and Rapunzel. I know Dapper Day is only a one-day thing, but our trip is 2 days long, so I might make it a 2-day dapper event for me.

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3. If you’re not watching Marvel’s Agent Carter on ABC go do it. It is an amazing show. Don’t knock it because it’s set in 1946. I love period pieces, and they do a really good job. Plus, Peggy Carter is kick-ass, and it’s cool to get to focus on an amazing woman instead of just forgetting her after Cap disappears.


4. I’m super stoked to get Zumba certified on Saturday. I have to drive over a mountain pass, which I haven’t ever done when snow is present, but I’m going with a friend so at least I won’t be alone. I am currently an ISSA certified personal trainer, but after trying to get hired as one I realized that personal training isn’t what I’m into. I got into fitness through group fitness classes. I love the community it creates. One-on-one is great, but it’s not for me.

5. I’ve been slacking on my home yoga practice. It’s midterms now, which is one of the downsides of being on a quarter system instead of semesters. At least if you hate a class it ends a lot faster than on semesters. I also injured my shoulder so I’m avoiding working it for a day or two, which means down dog is out of the question, and I mainly practice vinyasa.

6.  I am absolutely in love with overnight oats. I recently discovered that adding a bit of cinnamon and nutmeg just makes it amazing. Surprisingly, I’m not big on adding nut butters, but I did only try that once, so maybe I need to give it a second chance before I really decide. I actually hate regular oatmeal, so the fact that I like overnight oats is pretty surprising for me.

7. My friend is going back to Japan on Saturday. I hope I get to say goodbye before she goes. She’ll be leaving at about 5 AM on Saturday, so I’ll be sleeping since I’m going to be spending about 8 hours in Zumba certification just a few hours later. So I’ll have to try to say bye on Friday.

she took this picture when we got fro-yo on Monday

she took this picture when we got fro-yo on Monday

8. My iTunes is on shuffle playing songs from my Disney playlist, and I’m having all kinds of flashbacks. Flashbacks to when I was 10 and my Dad first showed me Newsies and I became obsessed with it. Flashbacks to summer when I was 14 and Camp Rock premiered on Disney Channel back when it was still kind of good. I danced in my room to that soundtrack for hours despite the summer heat and lack of air conditioning in our house.

I NEED to see the Broadway version. I hope they tour.

I NEED to see the Broadway version. I hope they tour.

9. We are about a week into February and I am ready for warmer weather and the end of this year. Unless I get my hover board and 80’s themed nostalgia restaurants, I am just ready to graduate and get on with my life.