In recovery you have to learn to let yourself indulge, no matter how many calories or how much fat or whatever it is you’re afraid of. Life is way too short to not eat whatever you want. But there is always that fear of gaining too much weight; of letting yourself go. You’re afraid, at least I am, of just going crazy. Taking the “life’s too short” thing for granted and just eating every dessert you see every chance you get. It’s also just not healthy to do that. It’s not good to just buy cookies because you saw them and thought, “There haven’t been cookies in the house for a while. I better buy these!” It’s not good to order a burger with bacon and cheese and bar-b-que sauce and steak fries just because you went out to eat that night and you went out to eat 3 days ago. It’s not good to eat only sugar and fat and salt, even though it is important to get over fear foods.
Something I really struggled with, and still do to an extent, was going from one way of eating to the next. I went from eating nothing to eating every treat I was offered. I had to learn how to take care of my body properly and eat right.
Life’s too short.
Life is too short to not nourish your body and be healthy. This is the one body you get. It’s the only one you’ve got, so why treat it so poorly?
Now, poorly doesn’t just mean eating poorly all the time. You do have to take care of it and feed it the foods it needs to run on like all those delicious fruits and vegetables, and getting all that good exercise, but it also means letting yourself indulge every now and then.
Right now I am training pretty hard. I do 45 minutes of strength training every day followed by at least 15 minutes of cardio. Since the fiancé is away it’s easier for me to eat what my body needs and what is healthy. I have little treats a few times a week, which is okay. And little can mean a couple of pieces of mini reeses cups, or a cup of fro-yo, or an ice cream sandwich, or a bag of fruit snacks. I am happy and every time I look in the mirror something has changed. I am starting to look more defined and am losing fat. I’ve only been at this for 3-4 weeks with a few slip-ups because of my trip to Montana (although I did run 3 miles in the mountains one day and swim for 2 hours another). It’s amazing.
The best part is that I am happy. I think I am finally getting to that balance between taking care of myself and indulging. The most important thing though, and the best thing though, is that I am happy. Life’s too short to not be happy!