I started exercising again on Monday and jumped right into the 4 week pilates challenge I had started a week before I got sick, and going from 3 weeks of doing nothing after literally 4 years (I have not given myself a rest day in 4 years. I have little marks on all my calendars to prove it) to going right into the intensity I was in before (I gave myself the weekend to work up to it, I promise) I am all of a sudden crazy hungry all the time now! I think that in those 4 years my body got used to doing an intense amount of work on about 1200 calories a day (in the past year, before it was <800 calories a day), but now that I have taken a break and gone back into it my body is telling me to EAT MORE, and I have to admit that is really frightening. I do about an hour of pilates a day now, 5 days a week and normally consume between 900 and 1400 calories a day but I am hungry all the time! Between breakfast and lunch my stomach is making so much noise people around me can hear it. I have snacks but I swear that my stomach attacks it as soon as I swallow it, breaks it down in a matter of seconds, and then is back to growling.
I feel like that woman in the picture. I want to eat all the time and I can’t buy more food at school because it’s disgusting for one and I never bring any money with me to school.
I also am terrified of going over my calorie intake which I will today because I’ve already had 1200 and I still have to eat dinner, and that really bothers me. I do not want to eat any more food but my mom will kill me if I don’t eat. She has never understood my eating disorder or attempted to understand, and my switching to a healthy lifestyle bothers her. I don’t think she’ll ever understand that either so I don’t talk about it around her. But I’m going to have to eat dinner tonight even though I think it is clear by my calorie intake today that I do not need to eat any more. It just really bothers me that I am finally able to get back into exercising and now I want to eat more. So I’m going to try and keep it below 1200 tomorrow, maybe below 1000 to make up for whatever my total ends up being today.
But I want to ask you all if you have any good meal or snack ideas for me? Preferably healthy snacks and ones that will fill me up for a long time. Snacks that are also easy to take to school. I have no fridge access or ice pack or cooler to take with me. Breakfast especially since I get hungry about an hour after breakfast and I eat breakfast 6 and lunch isn’t until 12.
So, any good breakfasts or snacks? My lunches are really boring too, so any suggestions for that would be nice!
Does increasing your intake ever freak you out?