Over break I barely got any kind of a workout in. For 3 days I walked and stood from about 8am to 10pm in Disneyland and after that it was lounging on the couch and watching movies and eating holiday treats. No doubt I gained a good amount of weight in those two relaxing weeks. As a part of my NYR I am trying not to weigh myself as often as I had been in the past if at all. It’s kind of hard, but I guess it will get less difficult as time goes by. Since I didn’t get in a decent amount of exercise over break whenever I would look in the mirror I would see myself as this gigantic, fat, bloated person, even though there is no way I could have gained that much weight in such a short amount of time. Sometimes I thought I looked like the size of a baby mammoth. It was a major problem. I thought about ways I could cut back but my boyfriend was home so that wasn’t happening. I hated the way I looked.
But since school started yesterday and my boyfriend went back to college I got to get back into my old routine. I did an hour of pilates yesterday and while my legs were shaking from being worked so much I felt absolutely amazing. And I looked amazing. While I probably didn’t drop any weight or really change physically in the minutes following my workout, when I looked in the mirror what I saw was drastically different from what I had seen over break.
I don’t know why exercise affected how I perceived myself but it made me happy. It’s an odd thing, but I suppose that it makes some sense.
Have you ever experienced something like this?