>This past week was so full of stuff that I can’t even begin to . . . I can barely organize any of it! My school messed up my schedule for my senior year before I even turned in my course sign-up sheet. They are combining two year-long AP classes into one class, so I would be getting the equivalent of one semester’s worth of class time in a whole year. AP Literature and AP Government, I’m pretty sure, should have their own period and students should go every day, not every other day. I sent a letter to my school’s principal because I was pissed, and if you all remember this post at the very end where I sent a letter to the principal about the AP policy and how they weren’t handling it well and that I wanted it to be fixed for all of the students who are going to be screwed over if it stays this way and they blew me off, they did the same thing this time. Only this time, I wasn’t sending this email for all of the students that were going to have to suffer next year, I sent it for me. I’ve been looking forward to AP Literature since my sophomore year and even more so when I found out my AP English class was destroyed (I’m pretty sure I’m gonna fail the AP test and English and writing is my life!). This was his reply:
“Thanks for your well written email…..I have forwarded it to each academy principal….I appreciate you caring about ALL of our T—- B—– High School students…rk”
I deleted some of the name of my high school, but otherwise that is the email. Am I crazy, or is that comment at the end completely uncalled for? I do care about all the students, but next year is my senior year and I need to not go insane because my boyfriend will be in college and I don’t really have any other close friends. But, does he care about all of the students? AP classes are not meant to be every-other-day-split-with-another-class thing. I really enjoy how the teachers of these AP classes didn’t get a say, either, AND that they can’t even argue their side. Why do they insist on making them split? My mom is pretty angry, too, so we’re going to talk to the principals about it. The school principal pointed me out to one of the academy ones yesterday and I walked by glaring at them. Probably not the smartest thing to do, but I’m pissed!
I was freaking out by Wednesday when I got his reply and as a coping method, I took a nap for about 2 hours with my boyfriend. I sleep when I’m freaked out and don’t know what to do. I just don’t know how to deal with it and I don’t want to, so I sleep. I didn’t want to eat, either. I felt like I was being stupid and wrong and I wasn’t good enough or important so, of course, I fix that with not wanting to eat. My boyfriend wanted to eat because he was hungry, but wouldn’t eat without me, so eventually he threw a little cup of applesauce at me and told me to eat. I was pretty pissed and then really upset. I don’t ask for what I want because I feel selfish and then when I finally do, it’s wrong, so I’m getting mixed messages I guess. Stupid school. I can’t wait to graduate.